Saturday, November 1, 2008


Still no evidence of a period, but that doesn't really mean anything. At least it doesn't with my known history. If nothing shows up by next weekend, I'll take a test and go from there. DO NOT GET YOUR HOPES UP LADIES.

Thursday, October 30, 2008

How does that happen?

Strange no? How does a die-hard CFBC'er do a 180 and want to have a kid? This wasn't some sudden "I need something new, hey honey let's have a kid!" decision. It's the same decision-making process as thinking about getting a puppy or kitten. It takes time, patience, love, money, and sacrifice. A lot of these feelings have to do with my age and hormones.

I'm 32, 33 in just a few months. I have matured and grown in the last 10 years. Some of my views have changed, some haven't. Opinions and views change with more information, education and experiences. That's called being human. Striving to know and learn more is an aspect of someone's personality that shows they are most likely responsible and don't subscribe to one dimensional thinking. I've met so many people that don't want to learn or educate themselves on things that do affect them. They like to be ignorant of facts and information because to them, changing their mind is showing weakness. That couldn't be further from the truth. It's so sad and pitiful.

Frankly, I'm sick of taking BCPs. Because of my huge weight loss, the strength of the YAZ I was on didn't work anymore. I had two periods in one month. Something has changed. Maybe this change is in my favor?

I could never understand why people think that Childfree people hate kids. Granted some are militant, but the majority of Childfree adults are fine about kids, they just don't see the need to add their genetic makeup into the mix. (Then there are some people that just shouldn't have had kids) Apparently, it's such an alien view that something MUST be wrong with the CFBC right? No. And others who think that are ignorant lumps.

Tuesday, October 28, 2008

Day what?

I'm looking at the calendar yesterday counting, recounting, then counting again because I want to make sure that I am, in fact, on day 29. 9/30 was the first day of my last period and counts as day 1, right? Blah.

I forget what day exactly I stopped taking my BCP, but it was around the first couple days of October. Knowing my reproductive organs, I won't get "fertilized" the natural way. All of this was made possible by a peice of shit NP at Humbay, CA back in 1997. It took her 2 years to finally listen to me. Pretty shitty eh?

More times than not I've gotten grossly shitty care through MTFs. The only exception was at Travis AFB in 1999 at their Infertility clinic where I had my fimbrioplasty. My doctor was Dr. Lovely and she was awesome. The nursing staff was extremely attentive and my recovery was so much easier because of the top quality care I received.

Can I have just one kid. Please? Just one is all I ask for. I know what a big surprise this is to everyone because I was such a die hard CFBCer. Most people's crotchfruit are the epitome of evil because they take after their peice of shit parents. It's ashame really that there is this group of humans (they barely qualify as human) in this world that think of most things as just that - things, possessions, objects and other living things they think don't have thoughts, feelings, or emtions. They pass on this abhorrent way to their offspring and the cycle continues.

Since I'm on day 28 or 29 I guess I'm suppose to get my period again. So far no bleeding and no period symptoms have occurred.

Keep your fingers crossed for my very very excellent friend Roni - she's been TTCing for some months now. May her testing reveal a positive outcome! I love you Roni!