Balanced Now?

Ok. Hopefully, this whole nearly-no period and a hell-on-wheels period for the last 2 months will have balanced, I hope.

It's been 3 months since I stopped taking my BCPs, so it should be out of my system by now. Are we Tabula Rasa now? I think yes.

Yeaaahhhhhh

Wait a few days and yeahhhhhhh! We're making up for last month's nearly no-show. Like another CG wife posted a few days ago, uteri suck! I don't have any "fat bloated" sweatpants left, so I've ganked a pair of PIE's. Went clothes shopping yesterday before the bloating swung into full force - 3 shirts and 1 pair of jeans at Kohl's for $16.80, 2 cute as hell dresses (1 for NOLA), several bras and panties, and 3 tops plus a set of beer mugs for $100 at Ross.



On a rather sour note, I keep hearing the "She doesn't deserve a child" whispers. My response to that is, "At least I've proven that I can take care of and love another living being aside from my husband and myself without selfishness, attention whoring, or seeking approval or acceptance from other people." What anyone deserves sure as shit isn't up to you and darwin forbid if it ever was, the whole world would be in chaos thanks to your overwhelming density.

*kisses*

Hasn't come back yet.

No period. No positive test either. Based on last month's cameo it should be here tomorrow, but with how PCOS works and the fertility issues I've had since I was AD, it would not surprise me if my period does not show up even though a preg test indicates a negative result.

Er..ok....

Well, that was a pretty short period. Ended on 1/7. Watch, it will come back next week.

It amazes me at how many hits I get on this blog from people who hate me, I mean really have a strong dislike for me. Check out this link that I got from someone who visited this very blog:

http://www.google.com/search?q=why+peoplehate+the+childfree&ie=UTF-8&oe=UTF-8&client=safari

This search on google is how they found me, so everyone wave to Ms. Woodhaven, NY!

I'm so pleased that all of you haters come and visit me on a daily basis! *MUWAH*

*waves*

A week early! It's cool because now I won't be raggin' on my birthday! Having fun practicing, but then who doesn't?! I think I've miss counted - really need to get that book TCOYF.

I'm so excited to get my first steel-boned corset next week! Gorgeous craftsmanship and quality brocade material. It's a beautiful example of a Victorian style corset. When I tried it on back in November, it relieved some of my back pain. Strange, but not unheard of. I've been told by a few corset builders that they help improve posture. It was very comfortable, which I did not expect.


I want to get my kitties a new scratching post this year - maybe I could find a free one on a pet discussion board or craig's list. Possibly PIE could build one? He's handy and very talented with stuff like that for our furbabies.

Continued thoughts and good luck wishes for all of my friends who are TTCing. It will happen for all of us, we just have to be patient - never has been one of my virtues. Love to all!

Damn.

I just realized that I'll have my period for my birthday - maybe. Damn it all to effing hell. At least I'll be able to eat at one of my favorite restaurants - The Fat Canary! That place is phenominal! And I'll be able to put MY HOUSE back together. Carpets will be getting cleaned to rid the beagle smell and I'm going to paint it some decent colors. I have some paint already bought for the front room and hallway. Oooooo I can't wait!

Might even rake some leaves while we're down there. Ankh will be going with us too. She'll be so glad to romp around her yard again. Need to clean up Hooba's grave too.

We may have positive test? Maybe? Keep fingers crossed.

Devastated, Heartbroken, Sad

My heart is completely shattered for the Fox Family. I know that their Princess no longer feels any pain, sorrow, or sadness, but her passing is almost too much to bear. I know that I was nothing more than another user name on Coastie Chicks, but I felt like I was part of the Fox Family every time I saw an update, post, or quick message from Angela.

I cannot imagine anything more heart wrenching than losing a beloved child to this horrible disease - losing a child to anything is awful. Nothing I say or write adequately describes my feelings and emotions right now.

All of my family's thoughts and love go out to the Fox Family. We grieve with you, we support you, and we will continue to comfort you.

7 days long

Period ended today. The last 4 days had been very light, which is good for me considering how the first few days were and have officially been renamed "The Red Sea" - gross I know, but I cannot think of a more apt title.

Had an adverse reaction to the Caramel Apple creamer last night - made me nauseous, so I will not be putting any of that flavored stuff, not even a hint of it, in my coffee or tea. It was during our driving last night all around Bucks County when it happened and I do not think it was carsickness. It lasted about 20 mins. I really thought I was going to dump (puke). I know how to listen to my body when it tells me it is not happy. Won't be consuming that anymore. I have other pouch-friendly options that taste great!

We've had two gloriously rainy days here!

I cannot wait for Giftmas morning! PIE will be getting everything he wants this year as far as gifts are concerned. The only thing he (and I) will not be getting is our trip to WA for Giftmas to spend with my Mom like we had been planning for the last 8 months. Fortunately, we still have that trip fund to build up even more for next year. I think we'll be taking two trips to WA in 2009 - one for a family reunion and the other for Giftmas/New Year's. YAY! Being frugal and using coupons has saved us over 2K in 2008, which I have been salting away! You have to watch your money wisely no matter what rank you are in the military. In a sense it is a fixed income with the only variable being where you're stationed.

Wow, a bit much ya think?!

Period showed up yesterday (12/5). Today, however, I've bled through a couple times while at work. This hasn't happened in YEARS. The really cool thing is that I seem to be regulated in my cycle without BCP's! Very stoked. Looks to be about 32 days from start to start.

My job is going great. Had a very rocky day last Monday, but the rest of the week went perfectly! I going to buy a small greenhouse with my Giftmas and birthday money. I can't wait to start my veggies and flowers in February/March! Growing our own produce will save us so much money. I'll be able to take the greenhouse with us back to VA in a couple years too.

I read a post tonight on one of my CG spouses discussion forums about why the OP's SIL doesn't like babies. At 2330 that thread was an hour old and not one response. Delicate thread that could turn VERY ugly very quickly. I may respond to it after all. Some people just have an aversion to small babies and children. They don't want any and don't want to be forced to interact with a child on any level. It may also be because a person does not know how to act around babies and small children. Kids may make them uncomfortable. Maybe they don't know what to do with kids? It might be that don't want to be bothered. Truthfully, the only person that knows why they may not like babies is themselves and they don't have to explain why to anyone. There is nothing, absolutely NOTHING, wrong with not liking kids.

Meh, I don't have a problem with kids or babies. I just wasn't wanting to replicate for the last decade. I like being CFBC, but I'm having that bio-clock-ticking-away feeling. I will always be angry that my choice of naturally conceiving was pretty much taken away from me by shitty medical practices. Awful.

I'm assuming that since I have a period and that my cycle seems to be normal that I do in fact ovulate, right? I really need to buy that book everyone keeps telling me about.

I juwst put a dasg=h of Nestle's Coffeemate Caramel Apple flavored coffee creamer in my hot tea. OMDOG, is it yummy! I have to only put in a splash because it does have 5g's of sugar per Tablespoon serving.

Cool news: We have a vacation home now! I cannot wait to start decorating it! I need to go to Joann's and buy some fabrics to make curtains. Going to be so much fun!

Ahhh shoes, Ahhhh clothes

Working at Macy's makes not buying clothes and shoes incredibly HARD! Must resist the temptation to blow my paychecks on clothes and shoes lol.

Due to start my period on the 3rd. Who knows? ;)